April 18, 2013
Wow people on tumblr are amazing. I got a lot of amazing messages from people. I obviously didn’t kill myself yesterday…. It really helped me to think that someone would spend the time to message me.
I’ve made some pans for my life. Things like moving out and switching schools. Hopefully when I get out of this place, I’ll finally be able to breathe.
April 17, 2013
Just the fact that my own mother would do this and then when I am upset about it complain about me loudly all day downstairs.
I skipped school because I’m planning on killing myself.
I really am this time I am about to go find a knife and stab myself directly in the wrist with it.
I’m tired of this fucking place. I’m tired of the fucking world. Why does society think it’s okay to put the power over the future of the world (kids) in these idiots hands. They’re homophobic, racist, sexist pigs. Some parents are okay, obviously, but why are the rest of the fucking population of parents going to come here and just fuck up society. Just fuck it right up.
I’m so messed up. I am a messed up person. I have depression and probably adhd but my parents have never wanted to get me help because they don’t believe in these things. but they wonder why I am the way I am. They wonder why I sometimes skip class or why I have no motivation to get things done or i get distracted easily.
Well I wonder why ahahahhahahaaha
I am tired of living in this house, being forced to do things that I don’t want to do. Having to hear sexist and racist and homophobic things 24/7. HAving to deal with two completely insane people who just so happen to be in charge of my life….
i am tired of it.
January 18, 2013
We’re standing on the line together,
But I’m the one holding all this ruby lace.
Yesterday you said you’d help me
With this hardship.
Sorry that I believed you.
January 16, 2013
I am a little nervous I am pregnant…
December 1, 2012 b
I’ll be sitting in my room thinking about my various boy problems. All I will want is to talk to someone. My first thought will be to talk to you.
Suddenly time will slow and the world will feel more blue. I will become painfully aware of my heart beating. My legs, my arms, my chest, my nose will all feel drooping as finally my mind is sinking into the reality.
You are the only person I trust. You are my only friend. I gave up my life, my friendships, for you. I can’t talk to you about boy problems, though. You’d get jealous. Now, I realize why I can never break up with you.
I’ll be alone without you.
December 1, 2012
You know that feeling that you get when you are trying not to think of something, but it’s all you can think about? like it is something very hurtful, something you wish you’d never know/seen/heard/whatever.
That is how I feel right now.
Thinking of him with another girl. I
liked like him. Why doesn’t he like me? I know I am annoying and mean and fat and just plain awkward. but
why am i this way.